Thursday, January 19, 2017

Blessings of Life. a new release from LDrag Designs

Hey Ya'All!
LDrag Designs has been missing for a little while but she's back!
She has a new release
Blessings of Life
buy as the bundle and save
or seperately


stacked papers

Wanna see a lil inspiration?

Happy Scrappin Ya'All!


Mix & Match~ Valentines, a new release from Christaly Scraps

Christaly Scraps has a new template release for you!
Mix & Match- Valentines template set
these sets can be mixed and matched or made single.

You can grab these templates for 20% of until January 23 from her store:

   E-scape & Scrap
 How about a lil inspiration for Ya'All!
 Happy Scrappin Ya'All!

Toy Mania, A new release from Magical Scraps Galore

Pop in and win! Inspired by one of the most popular theme park attractions, TOY MANIA by Magical Scraps Galore is a colorful and whimsical collection that includes most of the popular targets and props found in the ride, such as spring-action shooters, balloons, plates, ducks, green army men, plastic monkeys, dominoes and dice, letter blocks, scrabble tiles, viewer wheel, crayons, playing cards, among many other game pieces and toys. So take aim, shoot, and remember ... whether you re an expert or a beginner, everyone s a winner!
Find the full collection at 58% off -or the individual kit and add-ons at 30% off  through Tuesday midnight  at GingerScraps, Scraps N Pieces and The Digichick.
Some wonderful inspiration from the Creative Team:
CT member Karrie made this fun cluster using Toy Mania to share with you. 
Click on the preview to  download:
Stay tuned for Marina's new collection coming to stores in February!
Thank you and have a great day!
Happy Scrappin Ya'All!

Wednesday, January 18, 2017

Day 3 of radiation

Day 3 of radiation...
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger? But you'd be surprised what you can go through before you die... or at least feel that way. And I feel that way.
First of radiation is WAY worse than chemo.
For the last 2 days I have got in my car and thought do I really want to do this again? But for that chance that this won't come back, for that small hope that even though I don't want to feel, but do anyways... I go.
Being sick isn't pretty. I feel awful. I look like pooh. It's not that cutesy pretty pink commercials. It's real. It's emotional. It's gross.It's tiring & exhausting. and it's painful.
My head feels like its in a vise grip. Im exhausted from getting very little sleep, between nerves, thinking, & my legs crampy and feeling like they have to move all the time. I spend the better half of my day running to the bathroom not knowing if  I'm going to throw up or have diarrhea or both. My throat is sore from throwing up. The nausea is worse because at least when I throw up , I get a little relief for a little bit. My stomach hurts. I'm cold . I'm hot. I'm dizzy. I am so extremely tired and just cannot sleep. I just want to bawl... and I know I'm complaining. But I am also surviving. I am beating this. This sucks right now, I am not even gonna lie. I miss my friends. I miss my work. I miss feeling like a human being. But I only have 2 more days left... 2 more days... 2 more days... 2 more days...
I have been doing that everyday since the first day. And praying for strength to make it through this... but right when I need it the most I always get a lil sign from god. yesterday when I was feeling bad, my good friend sent me a text
I hope she realizes how much that meant to me. I am so very lucky with all the supporters I have. my family, my work family, my friends, my facebook friends.
I feel like I'm letting people down though. This makes me feel like I should just suck it up and get on with life. Put a smile on your face & work through it.
My momma sent me a text the other day and told me she wished she could take the pain away. Mommas always know the right thing to say to ya. Sometimes I stop by there because it just has a calming effect.
My husband has been extremely supportive making sure im eating or rubbing my back, my head or my legs, getting me ice, and even little thing like getting me muddy bears, chocolate marshmallows, & cadbury eggs cuz he know I like them.
Today my dr came and saw me cuz yesterday I was extremely dizzy and had to take a sedative and lay down for 2  1/2 hours . My red blood cells are low. my hemoglobin is 6.7 ( 6.6-8 g/dl is severe 6.5 and under is life threatening) she said that is what is making me dizzy and my heart beat fast. Because of radiation she doesn't want to give me a transfusion unless it becomes absolutely necessary. So she told me to eat iron rich foods and take iron pills, b12 and folic acid. and if it doesnt get better there is a drug she said she can give me through an iv (erythropoietin)
I live in the country. Yes way out in the stix. not very many people around. I stood on my front porch and just screamed. The dog & cats looked at me like I was a crazy women. So yes like a crazy woman I had a conversation with them. explaining myself... to cats & a dog. Im not sure if they understood but I did feel a little better. then I decided to come and write a blog post about this.Im trying really hard to not feel depressed. but I just can't help it. I guess I just got to believe that god has a plan for me. Cancer has tried to take me 4 x's and god hasn't let that happen yet. So I just need to make it through this.

2more days...2more days...2more days...2more days...2more days...2more days...2more days...2more days...2more days...2more days...2more days...2more days...2more days...2more days...2more days...2more days...2more days...2more days...2more days...2more days...

Cancer sux Ya'All!

Tuesday, January 10, 2017

Friday the 13th & a little surgery... what could go wrong?

A plan of action is finally here!
 I am both terrified and ready for it. & yes I realize it is on friday the 13th. But at this point I don't care. I am soo beyond over this.
Friday I have my surgery set . The plan is to give me a dnc (dialation & curettage).
"Dilation and curettage (D&C) is a brief surgical procedure in which the cervix is dilated and a special instrument is used to scrape the uterine lining."
Then I am going to have cryosurgery to remove the cancer cells.
"Cryosurgery is the use of extremely cold temperatures to freeze and destroy abnormal tissues."
Since my heart is  BIG issue right now they have ensured me that all measures to monitor it have been made. 

On Monday I am going to start a 5 day round of radiation. to hopefully help ensure that the cancer is gone and doesn't come back.
I say that but in reality the statistics are stacked against me... But I can be optimistic.
20-40% of women have reoccurance. but that also means 60-80% have been cured.
Today I not only got to have my wonderful weekly iv with electrolytes and nutrients. I also got my consult for radiation and ran through a simulator for it.
& they are going to keep me on the hormone therapy for 2 weeks.

"The objective of radiation therapy is to kill uterine cancer cells for a maximum probability of cure or palliation with a minimum of side effects. Radiation therapy can be used to prevent local cancer recurrences after surgery (adjuvant therapy) or for the treatment of recurrent cancer. Radiation is generally given in the form of high-energy beams that deposit the radiation dose into the body where the risk of cancer cells is greatest. Radiation therapy, unlike chemotherapy, is considered a local treatment. Cancer cells can only be killed where the actual radiation is delivered to the body. If cancer exists outside the radiation field, the cancer cells are not destroyed by the radiation. Therefore, radiation therapy is typically used for early stage cancers confined to a single location (field) in the body.
Radiation can also be directly placed in the area of the cancer (brachytherapy) or in the area where unseen cancer is suspected. For uterine cancer, this is the “vaginal cuff” region where the incision was made when the uterus was removed. Brachytherapy does not penetrate very deep and external beam radiation therapy is often combined with brachytherapy for treatment of uterine cancer."

 I'll be getting the direct beam of light for $200 alex (sorry bad joke)
Im told that the side effects aren't bad but Im not sure if I trust that. They said I could work but will probably feel exhausted at the end of the day. I mean just lok at these side effects.. doesn't it make ya wanna go get radiation right now? lol No? nah me neither.

"Radiation therapy to the abdominal/pelvic area may cause diarrhea, abdominal cramping or increased frequency of bowel movements or urination. These symptoms are usually temporary and resolve once the radiation is completed. Occasionally abdominal cramping may be accompanied by nausea.It is not unusual for some patients to note changes in sleep or rest patterns during the time they are receiving radiation therapy and some patients will describe a sense of tiredness and fatigue.Appetitie changes, alergic reactions, anemia, low platelet count, mouth sores, dry mouth,Nausea, with or without vomiting"

 It's alot to process. So for now Im blogging about it so I can get it off my chest. These last couple weeks I have just been so tired and not just physically emotionally too. I want to get back into work and not feel so lazy and have a purpose. But then I just wanna curl up in a warm blanket and just rest.
Yep adulting sucks sometimes.I hate disappointing all those that think im so strong... but I did tell ya im not as strong as ya think.When they told me today Im gonna have to get radiation I just bawled. It's scary all this stuff. 
 Okay so anyways recap: surgery on friday the 13th followed by 5 days of radiation followed by 2 weeks of hormone therapy.... and alot of prayers. and then ..Hope!

Cancer sux Ya'All!

Monday, January 9, 2017

Winter Wonderland, A new release from Triple J Designs

In countries with seasonal climates and cold Winters, no other song conjures up images of the joys of freshly fallen snow like the easy melody and cheerful lyrics of Winter Wonderland. If you're lucky (?) enough to live in such a climate, you have likely experienced the fun of walking through the freshly fallen snow or building your very own snowman. Scrap all of your Winter memories with Winter Wonderland digital scrapbook kit by Triple J Designs. The beautiful color palette is full of cool blues and is perfect for capturing the chilly fun of your Winter adventures. 

Winter Wonderland is 30% off through January 15th

And now, a little CT Inspiration...



Happy Scrappin Ya'All!